Psychology tag might suit it better. What fairy tales never tell you is the iridescence you find also drops into flat, satin and gloss, and it's just a matter of time, but some part of it will survive the daily tear and wear and seep through your armor and you'll find there's truly nothing can compare. Until then, stay hopeful.
as someone who had been on Zoloft for four years, I understand. this is just what depression feels like, one minute you feel lighter than in years, and the next second you crash hard and just can't feel anything anymore